The community values the needlework Hester does, but Hester feels that she remains an outsider and senses constant reminders of the punishment she has incurred for her sin.
In this manner, Hester Prynne came to have a part to perform in the world.
With her native energy of character, and rare capacity, it could not
entirely cast her off, although it had set a mark upon her, more
intolerable to a woman's heart than that which branded the brow of Cain. In
all her intercourse with society, however, there was nothing that made her
feel as if she belonged to it. Every gesture, every word, and even the
silence of those with whom she came in contact, implied, and often
expressed, that she was banished, and as much alone as if she inhabited
another sphere, or communicated with the common nature by other organs and
senses than the rest of human kind. She stood apart from mortal interests,
yet close beside them, like a ghost that revisits the familiar fireside,
and can no longer make itself seen or felt; no more smile with the
household joy, nor mourn with the kindred sorrow; or, should it succeed in
manifesting its forbidden sympathy, awakening only terror and horrible
repugnance. These emotions, in fact, and its bitterest scorn besides,
seemed to be the sole portion that she retained in the universal heart. It
was not an age of delicacy; and her position, although she understood it
well, and was in little danger of forgetting it, was often brought before
her vivid self-perception, like a new anguish, by the rudest touch upon the
tenderest spot. The poor, as we have already said, whom she sought out to
be the objects of her bounty, often reviled the hand that was stretched
forth to succor them. Dames of elevated rank, likewise, whose doors she
entered in the way of her occupation, were accustomed to distil drops of
bitterness into her heart; sometimes through that alchemy of quiet malice,
by which women can concoct a subtile poison from ordinary trifles; and
sometimes, also, by a coarser expression, that fell upon the sufferer's
defenceless breast like a rough blow upon an ulcerated wound. Hester had
schooled herself long and well; she never responded to these attacks, save
by a flush of crimson that rose irrepressibly over her pale cheek, and
again subsided into the depths of her bosom. She was patient,--a martyr,
indeed,--but she forebore to pray for enemies; lest, in spite of her
forgiving aspirations, the words of the blessing should stubbornly twist
themselves into a curse.
Continually, and in a thousand other ways, did she feel the innumerable
throbs of anguish that had been so cunningly contrived for her by the
undying, the ever-active sentence of the Puritan tribunal. Clergymen paused
in the street to address words of exhortation, that brought a crowd, with
its mingled grin and frown, around the poor, sinful woman. If she entered a
church, trusting to share the Sabbath smile of the Universal Father, it was
often her mishap to find herself the text of the discourse. She grew to
have a dread of children; for they had imbibed from their parents a vague
idea of something horrible in this dreary woman, gliding silently through
the town, with never any companion but one only child. Therefore, first
allowing her to pass, they pursued her at a distance with shrill cries, and
the utterance of a word that had no distinct purport to their own minds,
but was none the less terrible to her, as proceeding from lips that babbled
it unconsciously. It seemed to argue so wide a diffusion of her shame, that
all nature knew of it; it could have caused her no deeper pang, had the
leaves of the trees whispered the dark story among themselves,--had the
summer breeze murmured about it,--had the wintry blast shrieked it aloud!
Another peculiar torture was felt in the gaze of a new eye. When strangers
looked curiously at the scarlet letter,--and none ever failed to do
so,--they branded it afresh into Hester's soul; so that, oftentimes, she
could scarcely refrain, yet always did refrain, from covering the symbol
with her hand. But then, again, an accustomed eye had likewise its own
anguish to inflict. Its cool stare of familiarity was intolerable. From
first to last, in short, Hester Prynne had always this dreadful agony in
feeling a human eye upon the token; the spot never grew callous; it seemed,
on the contrary, to grow more sensitive with daily torture.